While I'm Waiting On your Lord!

Ater watching Fire Proof I have been absolutely obsessed with the song By John Waller " While Im waiting" and it has really hit Home for me and what I am going through right now. I posted some of the Lyrics.

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently,
I will wait

I’m waiting
I’m waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I’m waiting on You, Lord
Though it’s not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait

I feel like this Song speaks to me so much. Especially with everything I have been going through with waiting on my husband to get in the Air Force. Alot of people say " You know what if It is just not for him" But In my heart I know its God's Calling. I try so hard to brush comments off but It really eats at me. Sometimes I wish I could Pick up the Pieces for Him but I know I cannot.. It is his calling. I just want so badly to see him take off and sore.. and I find my self sometimes Begging to God and not just asking for it.

What I was saying though about this song talking to me is that I have been so Patient and I have been so Hopeful.. and I have tried to be confident and alot of the time I feel broken down by people who think Im crazy for my beliefs on life and future. Its not easy for Me by any means because I wish I could just show everyone How I can home school, and my son wont be "weird" and w/o a "social life" but to me you know his salvation is so much more important to me then Him being friends with the whole school. How I can be a homemaker and How I want my son to learn Creationism. I want to be able to profess the name of Jesus Christ and not feel awkward with people everytime I do. I want to be able to have rules in my life.. The rules of God. Im tired of people using curse words in front of my baby an I cannot wait for the day when I can stand on two feet and respected.

I find my self talking to God just hoping and Praying for my life to Change. I want so badly for something to happen in this life.. I crave for it so bad. I just feel like My life and everything In it, is for so much more. I want my entire Life God and it so many ways and not by choice its not.. And I know in my own house my own life , its Gods way or no way!!

Some times I become so anxious and impatient and I know that is God just telling me to be Patient.. an Iam Trying so very hard.. Please Pray for me.

My husbands favorite Scripture Verse:

Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, “My way is hidden from the LORD; my cause is disregarded by my God”? Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. (Isaiah 40:27-31, NIV)

I feel like that Scripture Is my husband .. Because he has fallen and stumbled and He and I are hoping in the Lord..